The lessons I learned this weekend from Jade Goody!

I am not sure why i feel the need to write about Jade Goody, I am not a fan of her particularly or big brother, well not anymore and not probably since the summer that Jade Goody was in the house. I watched in shock horror by this down to earth, common girl, larking about, having no responsibilities, and so it seemed no issues in a completely mad and untamed kinda way. Over the years I have caught bits of her on TV and my overriding thought is she is just as it is - which is fine and I have no opinion either way of her.

She left Big Brother as a runner up and then Jade Goody's story began, from the glitzy shows she attended to the horrific childhood she had had. A child of a drug fuelled mother, a child who had to fend for herself. This weekend I felt so sad as I read her story again, a child still really who now has to leave her two children to fend for themselves. Love her or hate her she is a personality, she is still pursuing her life in the media bullring to make sure that her children have a different start to her, an education, a nice house but sadly still no mum to bring them up.

Jade who I thought was fairly unintelligent, lacking in decorum, style or grace really spoke the truth on Friday when she found out that in two months she would be dead. I guess that's what death does. It seems to make you wise before your years because maybe in a sick way that's all the time you have left to say your piece and leave your mark. A truth that she spoke that struck a cord with me was that she is a mother and her biggest fear was to not see her children grow, develop and have the life she wishes for them. I simply can not imagine this. She cant teach them her way and she cant be sure that the values she wanted for their life will be kept - because she simply wont be here to do it!

I learned a lot in reading Jade Goody's story this weekend. I learned that we should love every moment and enjoy our children every second... so often they are niggley, tantruming, or being pickles but they also smile (lots), giggle (lots) and love to love you. I learned as a women I need to keep a check on my health - go for my smear test regularly and to count my blessings for my body, my mind and my health.

I put my heart and soul into http://www.cheekyfunky.com so much time and pressure and sometimes I miss Fin's smiles, today and every day from now I really am going to love them!